Olam Mandala

A Personal Truth
According to kabbalistic lore, creation was intended to have harmony. When the first Emanations of Light were exploded forth from the Nothingness, the first form was unable to contain them and either shattered or overflowed. Creation took on the form of the asymetrical Tree of Life Glyph most widely presented. Adam Kaidmon, Celestial Being shares this damaged pattern and so do each of us which reflect Below the archetypes Above. Mystical kabbalah as presented in the Sefer Yetzirah is -much- older that tarot cards and probably comes from 200-400 CE. The thoughtform of a supernal tree with different spheres encompassing all the aspects of reality is believed to have have roots in 9th century BC Assyria.

I came to the realization that it wasn't helpful for me to use the standardized Tree of Life in my magickal/spiritual studies back in the mid 1990s. Something in me rebelled, over and over, at the concept that the Tree of Life lacked symmetry. The more I read various authors, especially those relating to the Golden Dawn and the Occult Revival explain "why" the Tree of Life was shaped with mis-aligned sephira, the more I felt something in me reject that truth. By the time I actually discovered works talking about the Natural Array/Gra Tree of Life, I'd drawn it myself. And then suddenly it wasn't a tree for me any more. It was a mandala.

That was only the beginning of my internal heresy. I poured through the teachings of established Hermetic Qabalists and how the Tree of Life glyph, the Hebrew letters, the tarot cards and astrological correspondences fit with one another. There had been quite a bit of debated on some of it, actually. And there wasn't a single published list of correspondences that really felt right. Thankfully other life events before I made a fool (and not in a good The Fool way) out of myself by publishing all my indignation over how everyone just got it wrong.

Instead, I gave myself another good fifteen years to season and learn a lot more about human neurochemistry and the psychology of belief, conditioning and the social phenomena of Us vs. Them. I think I'm finally past the phase of "I have to prove that I'm right" Now, I can simply take what really and truly WORKS FOR ME and offer it to other people to take or leave as their personal paradigm encourages.

3 + 7 + (3x4)= 22 aka

The Core of It All